Human's frail heart

I found this anonymous letter from the internet.

I am married to a veteran injured in Iraq. The last 3 years have been hell for us. His PTSD is getting the best of him, and I don't know how to handle it anymore. He does get help, which I am grateful for. But, the anger and mood swings are almost too much to take. We know lots of couples who have divorced since returning from Iraq, over smaller issues that we have faced. I have stuck it out because I took a vow to love him in sickness and health. And I feel like that is what this is, it is a sickness. I could not leave and feel good about myself. I feel like he needs me now more than he ever has in the 10 years we've been together. But, at the same time I know I'm not happy, and at times I'm scared. This isn't where I expected my life to be. I spent almost 18 months counting down the days until he would be home. I spent many nights crying myself to sleep with worry. I couldn't wait for him to be home again with me. And, now I feel like.... "Is this what I was waiting for?? Is this why I cried all those nights??" When he was hurt, I rushed to be by his side. He has several life changing injuries, and through it all I have been right by his side. I feel like I sacrificed a lot while he was away, and have gotten nothing in return. I know this sounds selfish, but it is honestly how I feel. His depression is so bad, that he doesn't even want to take a bath. No one else will help us, so it's all left to me. I'm tired of being the responsible one! I feel like if I leave he'll be homeless in a year, and I don't think he would care. I love him more than anything, but I think it is time to start taking care of me. I think I have to start coming first!

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I can see why she is doing it. I can also see why that ex veteran is moody. It makes me wonder, if the people I love is causing a lot of inconvenience for me but at the same time they need me, would I stay and help them?? Would I love them and support them as I should even though they are giving me hell? I hope when the time comes I will have the character to do that. I am just thinking, God went through a lot of inconvenience for me while at the cross.