Unfairness

Recently someone my age committed suicide because he see himself as a failure in life. He have a "dead end job" he couldn't afford things like marriage and sadly our society expect more than what he can achieve. You see, I did say you can't blame him for being the way he is because, given a choice he wants to be capable and smart, given a choice he wants to be able to provide and succeed in life.

You might say, his stinking attitude led to a crappy life. True but that was the result of his up bringing and mind programming, is it totally his fault?. Did he choose his parents and the type of up bringing? Given a choice he would probably choose to be born in a well to do family that comes with good up bringing.

I have been thinking about this since at least 6 years old and I remember my mom getting a bit annoyed with me when I question all these things hahaha. I concluded that we can't blame incompetent people or "poor and useless" people for being who they are. They are the by product a world filled with unfairness and suffering. The catch is, we could be them by being born as them. The line between the average, rich and poor is very very thin. The similarity between the haves and have not is, God is the maker of them all. Despising the incapable and poor for being who they are just doesn't sound right.

The conviction in me is to do my best to make this world better for everyone. Hopefully someday if God bless me, I can have the privilege to have more influence in this area.

Being just smart is pretty useless

You may think you are smart, you may think you are a cut above the rest, perhaps you are, but unless you do something tangible with your smarts it doesn't matter how smart you are. Even if you are smart, it is just fleeting fantasy in your head, get it? useless fantasy. Geniuses and smart people are recognized in history and society for what they have uniquely produced NOT what they CAN produce, get it?

So being smart can pick apart people's argument, make them look stupid and what? Create enemies and more obstacles in their life? Smarts in a "wrong" way will not open doors unless it is used to produce. People appreciate builders not destroyers. It doesn't matter how smart you are, if you use it to intimidate people, you will get no credit for it. Quite a few smart people I see are just too argumentative, or not motivated by anything more than their end of the month pay check. There is nothing wrong with only looking forward to your pay check every month and nothing else, just don't expect people to give you credit for whatever intelligence you have,

So for those people that are genuinely creative, intelligent or savants like, I say do something tangible and extraordinary with it(and that excludes arguing and debating, unless it is with someone else that equally enjoys it).

My Bad Habit

I notice when I am working on an unusual project or R n D I get excited and I work my butt off. But once I solve the hard parts of the project I tend to neglect and feel lazy about the rest which are important but straightforward.

In the future when I need a buisness partner he/she ideally is the kind that will follow through on the predictable and easy boring bits and finish the whole thing. He/she must take joy and pride in finishing a project because I take a lot more joy solving problems that haven't been solved then doing repetitive boring drills. It just weighs me down to the point that I find myself begging for death.

My problem

My major problem is, I don't pay enough attention to details. I see too far and too wide too fast.

ADD kids/people

People view them as trouble makers, irresponsible or perhaps hopeless. It is true that ADD people tend to get distracted easily and have trouble focusing. They tend to under perform in many areas of their life hence it is quite normal for people to label ADD people as dumb. But one thing people do not know about them is, they generally have a unique ability to hyper focus in areas that interest them and as a result, solve problems at a level that only highly gifted people can. Obsessive compulsive disorder is also linked to people with ADD. The link between genius and ADD have been known for a long time.

So here is my plea to people that are dealing with troublesome ADD kids. Be patient with them and learn how to nurture them in a loving environment because they truly are unpolished gems that have incredible potential to do amazing things.

Software developements

Writing softwares is my love ans passion(including implementing operation research algorithms). I was trying to figure out why. I concluded that I like it because it enables me to carry out my fantasy and explore my imaginations that have measurable impact in the real world. Software engineers have tremendous ability to build "game changing" systems. For a creative person it is an affordable way to express his creativity to the hilt.

If you are a software developer for a client I conclude that once in a few years or so it is good to rewrite the whole things from scratch. This is due to the fact that through out the life span of the software, it is subjected to changes and modification that can cause the code to run inefficiently. Efficient and tidy code is important to save money on future modifications. Untidy code will cost you more when the code needs modifications.